State of equilibrium

I've never been good at balancing anything but my checkbook... and heck, I haven't even done that in years. I'm pretty much always one extreme or the other. When I find something I like, I'm obsessed with it. Like, I will listen to a cd on repeat for weeks. Seriously, all day, every day, for weeks. Things I think are a normal part of life some friends have pointed out as being, shall we say, a touch OCD*? And conversely, things I don't like I can avoid like the plague and have a deep intolerant passion for, and I think even during my short blogging stint on this site we've all seen that.

It's a fairly recent thing that I've been noticing just how crazy I am about stuff. Like part of the reason I am so on-again/off-again with MySpace is because I'm checking it every 12 seconds and next thing I know I've wasted three hours and it's just not healthy. So, naturally, I cut myself off completely. Makes perfect sense, right? So anyway, I've been obsessing noticing this obsessive behavior so much lately that I think I'm becoming obsessed about being obsessed! (ha! is that possible?) So in an effort to not analize and research the crazy, I'm just going to try to relax and balance small things in my life... maybe it can carry into more important parts of my life.

So, in 2008, I'm going to try to be a little less extreme. We'll see how that goes. Don't hold your breath.


*Funny thing, I was reading something about OCD the other day and it mentioned having thoughts like needing to go turn a light switch on and off three times or else something bad could happen to your mother. While I haven't had that thought exactly, it was rather disturbing because I can totally relate to thinking weird things like this... and then doing it, even though it is completely irrational that the light switch could have anything to do with your mother, but you know, just in case. So, typing that out just now? Yeah, should probably go get that checked out.